be still

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These were my 2 entries for a mail art call
in 1995 by Arto Posto, who I lost track of and
have read she may have died.

The amazing irony of this call and looking
at events that unfolded through the late
'90s have been a revelation to me.
And, it's taken almost 15 yrs to make
any sense out of it after moving
away from the bay area.

1 - Sometimes, people go through life
looking for answers, that can never
be found outside, because they are
inside themselves.

2 - I always wondered, if life in our
home had been any different
and more positive, what I
would have done and sooner
than starting to understand
it all starting in my 40s.

3 - Fear of success has been the ultimate
and key word in the back of my mind.

4 - Always being in relationships where people
were needy and manipulative.
Never realizing I was as much a problem
to them, as they were to me.

I received the following
envelope from Lisa.

I sent her this one.

It was a few years later, many emails, snail mail
and finally a phone call here and a phone call there,
that we decided to meet.

I was in a transition period, where life was in chaos
although family and friends may not have understood.

I knew before I left, I was not going to
be staying in Ca any longer. Some family and
friends said it wouldn't last.

5 - My upbringing was such, that I
had no self esteem, people wonder why
Recently, through a few old school friends
on FB I found out in school I was one
funny, happy kid. It was being at home
that caused the inward turn and fears.

Fortunately for me, moving here has been
helpful to get past all that.

6- 15 yrs + later, we are still together
and moving in directions neither of
us thought we'd ever move in.

7 - Sometimes, I wonder if she knows
how great these years have really
been, and just how much I love being
with her and doing what we do.

8 -Does anyone ever really know
how we think about the other,
when it comes right down to it?

This is for you and hoping for many
more years where we continue
to grow together and stay
this side of creative.

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I love you,

not because of

who you are,

but because

of who I am

when I am with you.

Roy Croft

Happy Birthday!

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